For the past couple years mother's day has been difficult because of wanting to be a mother so badly. Today was different for so many reasons. First of all, after training for several months, I completed my first 5k run since I was in high school. I decided to do this because I feel like I'm usually the type of person that starts lots of new things but has a difficult time finishing, especially when it comes to fitness and nutrition. I committed myself to the 5k because I knew it was something I could do if I stuck with it. I needed to prove that I don't always give up on myself. Well, after starting out the race a little rough (uphill most of the first mile was brutal), I finished out strong and came in under the time I had expected. The most amazing part was how accomplished and proud of myself I felt. During the race I kept thinking about my future babies and how I want to be a good example for them and I want to be healthy for them. I was also thinking about my mom and how determined she's always been in her life. I've always despised running, but who knows, maybe I'll become a runner after all!
Three more weeks until we go to the doctor to figure out our IVF time frame! I'm nervous and excited. This is what we've been waiting for, but I still have this thought in the back of my mind that something's going to go wrong or something unexpected will come up and deter everything. It sounds pessimistic but that's how our lives have been for a while now. We work so hard for what we want and then life happens and says "Not so fast!" Sometimes I wish I had a crystal ball to see what our future looks like. What's the outcome of all this going to be? But I guess that's the fun of life...never knowing what's around the corner.
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